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I love conventions

They are by far the funniest part of american politics. Now they used to be a rally cry. Now they seem to be more of a three ring circus. Carefully orchestrated to pull at the emotions of the zombies in it's audience. It's control at it's finest. Yet the conventions, as well as the politicians they advertise never do anything more than try and make the voter and constituent feel better about the bad choice they are about to make. Don't get me wrong I love america, they are some free wheeling and dealing motherfuckers. Although sometimes I shouldn't use the word free. They do like to deal a lot though. It's amazing to see the change in their society from a strong individual to a thoughtless mass. Easily manipulated and controlled. To the point where those who seek to break the control are part of the control.

I know it's hard to think that the "rebels" are part of the same system of control as the ones in power, but it's true. So who do you trust, well yourself, but only to a point. You can never really trust yourself. Cause even you lie to yourself. What I'm trying to say is that a constant ebb of change is always needed to keep power in check. Look at your congress, career politicians getting fat from the pork they eat. You want change in politics, it doesn't come from a president, it comes from a mayor. It comes at the basic level of politics, and like a drug coursing through your system it fundamentally changes the consciousness of the system. Change is always for the better. Term limits should be imposed on those elected whether it's your senator, representative, or your local council person. The career politicians don't care about you they care about getting re-elected. It's a confusing thing for you I know.

You say that the only reason they get re-elected is because they are doing a good job. Is this really the case, or are they doing a good job for big business, are they looking out for you, or just their pocket book. Look at how much money goes into these silly conventions.

It's because the powerful control, and the weak are controlled.

who do you want to be?

you have a system set up where you can control things, but you don't, because you are weak, and subject to control. It's a never ending circle. Time to wake up and restart the machine. Change must be constant, stagnation will only lead to sickness and death...stagnation will lead to your sickness and death...stagnation has led to your imprisonment and death...stagnation is the way to imprisonment...change will cause you growth.

"Can't be king of the world...

...if your a slave to the grind"  I think skid row summed it up right there. If you watch animals in the wild, you notice that the predators stalk their prey. The weaker animal really too stupid to change it's routine, it systematically gets killed and eaten. Controlled by the predator. Controlled by it's own need for routine; food, sleep, water. Your saying "but I'm different...", Are you really? You wake up in the morning, eat, work, eat, work, eat, sleep. Rinse, Repeat. Your being preyed upon by the rich and savy. They tire you, they work you till you can't resist, until you want to forget about your freedom. In fact you go home and work more, to keep you brain from thinking, thinking about things you wish you could do, or have done. You work to silence the thing that can set you free. You were made for slavery.  Your bondage was made for you when you became civilized. What was your brain made for but to think right? Then why have you restricted yourself, why are you suppressing your thoughts and actions. You created a system of control, and then you wonder why you feel like your missing something, your missing your freedom.

here's a story that just ran in the news, how much more proof do you need from me.

brain damaged monkey

That's right you get to see it in front of you if you never believed me. You just a monkey that has brain damage. You stood up and walked, the advantage you gained in walking upright, the brain damage changed the way you behaved. Now you have changed your own behavior to separate yourself. An anomaly caused you to reason, and your reasoned yourself into a mental jail.

The thinkers of the world are free, and tormented by their own thoughts, just like me. Join me, think, be free.

 

Love and Sex

Many a poet has expounded on the virtue of Love. Many writers have tried to explain it. Many songs have been written because of it. Really what is love, a chemical reaction, a memory, an illusion. All three none of the above. Love has driven many a man and woman to madness. It's almost a sickness for some, and often a burden for those without it. You look for love instead of just following your natural reaction. You are after all just another animal of sorts. You create the illusion of love and you do the strangest things to hold on to it or even to perpetuate it. Love has to be one of the most evil emotions of all emotions. Vincent Van Goh cut off his ear because of it. Does that sound like a sane thing to do? Ha, I guess it depends on what is sanity. Love is a strong emotion though, primal, yet not understood. It deeply and profoundly effects everyone at one point and time. So many other mysticisms are rolled up into it, fate, destiny. All things that are fallacies. Do this make love false to? Not really but there is no true or false definition for all things. Does it sound like a contradiction?, well yes of course because that's all you are is a contradiction in terms, a semantically mess of thoughts. No one wants to be alone after all you are socialized to be a community. Yet for some love is just out of the reach of explanation.
 
Mostly for the fact that love is confused with attraction, and lust. Things that are often demonized yet are more to the nature of who you are. You are told what is attractive by outside influences, and lust is the reaction to that coding. The thrill of seeing that perfect human being standing before you, the nervous sweat that releases your pheramones. The smirk of acknowledgment from the opposite sex. Lust devours your conscience and you react instead of think. The craving deep in your brain to satisfy your urges. Why deny it?, because your religion told you not to, because your afraid of the consequences. To be free of your inhibitions, free of your intellect for a moment, is truly excitement beyond the senses. The next day you will feel regret no matter what, regret of not doing it or the regret of giving in to your urges. Why regret the latter it is what you are. The regret of not doing it is more harmful sometimes.
 
Love is after all giving up a piece of you, a loss of power, whereas the completed act of lustfulness is a gain in power. All be it a short power trip but a very satisfying one. If lust is bad, love is worse, the pain you feel is horrible. The torment of loving someone who is not in love with you is the greatest hell you could ever feel. Sex on the other hand is pleasure, it is what you want and need, just like food and shelter, sex needs fulfillment. The trajedy being sex can cause all sorts of disease, malaise, and death. The flip side of that is it can bring life. How curiously odd the consequences are, which makes you think that consequences are void of any decision.
 
Life is after a coin flip away from disaster at any moment. Love is for those who are ready to give in and let a piece of themselves go to someone else. It's about compromise and you all are selfish out to satisfy your own goals, and love is not meant for you.

Blogger starting to impress me

Look at this it's almost as if blogger heard my complaints. Well we'll see

Immortality

It's an interesting concept, and one of the most requested for things. I don't fill requests, your selfish nature is what damns your soul, not me. I will give you my insight into immortality though. It can be achieved at the price of everything are you willing to work that hard for your immortality? Some have, some have given their life, some have given their sanity.

"but if your immortal how would someone give their life?" Well simply because being immortal isn't about living longer, it's about experiencing life and figuring out the questions that plague your very soul. Copernicus gave his life to give you the concept that the earth revolves around the sun. He is immortal by the very fact of the knowledge we gained from him. An idea can change the consciousness of the world. A thought can live on forever as long as people remember it. People give up entire lifetimes in order to study and come up with a concept that can make them immortal. They never think of their idea as immortal, well except for the egotists of thought. Other have driven themselves to insanity or used their insanity to realize what sanity really is.

Today's fast paced culture seeks instant enlightenment and instant immortality. Neither of these are things you should seek if your mind is weak. Instant power, is not something you can add water to and just receive. You fuck yourself seeking these things so don't go around saying the devil made me do it. Your responsible for your own lives.

Now the flip side of this is that immortality is one of the tastiest morsels. To die and for your idea to live on is true immortality. Not many have gotten to experience it while they are alive, but the thrill of a revolutionary idea set into motion for all of eternity before death's embrace is filling. Do you think your idea's and thoughts are that revolutionary, are you willing to give it all up to find it. You can have power without immortality, and immortality without power.

Blogging will not provide your immortality. It is only a look into your conscience. I wonder if these servers will become the dead sea scrolls of future, collective thoughts imprinted on 1's and 0's until the hard drive becomes demagnitized or rusts away. This is not forever, time is limited on here until someone comes up with the next idea, and then they will become immortal.

The Unexplained mysteries in short explanations

Ufo's - Human's need to feel like they are not alone. It's the same reason you enter enslavement through marriage, and you are prone to group inclusion.

Ghosts - The need for resolution. You never take advantage of life when your alive. Many reasons can be attributed to it, but reasons are just excuses wrapped up in a different package. "Ghosts" always have unresolved issues, if a ghost is anything it's a reflection of the person who is too scared to resolve an issue.

Pychic's - Kind of the same thing, mixed with the need for an afterlife. These disgusting pigs prey on your weakness, they are nothing more than a salesman selling you comfort at the price of your common sense.

Bermuda Triangle - I love this one, because it's so real, but for such a scientific reason. Your earthen core is straight up molten iron. It is a liquid and therefore due to earth's rotation is subject to the same things that apply to the yin and yang I described. It is a constantly moving ever changing chaotic mess. Balanced because you can hold a compass and it points north. This has not always been. Light is dark, north is south, and the bermuda triangle is a magnetic flaw due to the very nature of the system that is earth. Pole shift has created mass extinction and the earth is due.


You are easily fooled and sometimes enjoy it. Magicians entertain with the notion that it is entertainment. Yet a common criminal uses the same techniques to fool you. Nothing is as it appears because your mind is perceiving and not seeing. Your eyes see, but they need interpretation. If you want to see why these things are fake this man can show you http://www.randi.org/ He doesn't explain to you why you do them. I think the motivation is just as important as seeing the "trick".

Isn't that why we write. It's self exploration. It's explanation. To unlearn and relearn. I know I did this to let people know that the devil isn't about evil, the devil is about the suppression of the true human spirit, by outside forces and internal conflict. Sometimes we focus so much on the conflict on the inside we are led on the outside. Evil is the outward expression of internal conflict. Good vs evil might be a topic for another day. For now just remember that if something is unexplained it's because it is an illusion created by self. You are fooled because you choose to be fooled, or choose not to realize the foolery.

btw a little note about blogger

I forgot about this but I have been having problems with blogger, I'm glad it's free thank you guys very much for doing this, but I can't stand when my post don't post for like 5 hours, or when the comments don't get posted until someone posts another post. It's kind of annoying. Now I've got a lot of dirt on you guys, just keep that in mind. Try to work out the bugs with the simple stuff before you try and get voice to txt posts going, and things like that. I enjoy technology and the advancement of this society, but the little things are what kill us all, please can you get someone on these bugs.

Very cool I love you guys, but please fix the kinks, and put blogger and blog in your dictionary.

Meditation and stuff

I ran into a dear old friend of mine the other day, buddha, and we had a long talk about prayer and meditation, and the effect of it on humanity. Now buddha is a pretty cool dude, a little too much of a hippie for me but he's pretty chill. Basically we came to the same conclusion.

Prayer for the sake of self or praying for yourself is quite inadequate in solving life's dilemma's. It'll make you feel better, but it won't solve your problems. The B-man and I agree that self-actualization might be the only way to break from standard form of living and achieve a higher conscienceness. Now buddha happens to be a nice guy along the way. I'm more of a prick when it comes to the business end of my dealings. Don't forget buddha was a prince who had been kept away sheltered from the harsh reality of the world. His awakening is very singular, in that most of the rich today would never give up a life of luxury (sheltered or not), they might self destruct because of their riches, but never run away from it and become a monk.

Buddha and I disagree about cycles and the nature of life. He's dead on about how people are, but the achievement of a higher conscience or path in life cannot be achieved simply by following rules set by him or by sitting under a tree and achieving nirvana, it doesn't work that way. Not even selling your soul to me can bring about the real you. Only through deep meditation about how you are can you achieve your own awakening. Everyone is different in the fact that you have been coded to be a certain way. Outside experience effects how you are as a person, along with genetic codes that effect your brain function. These things create the "individual". That being said your no different than the person next to you, humans have so much untapped potential it's sickening.

One other thing I want to touch on briefly while I'm talking about buddha, is something buddha realized but didn't. When you look at the ying and yang The smaller circles can actually be smaller ying and yang's which done indefinitely creates the fact of reincarnation. The endless return of life back to itself. What buddha didn't realize is that this wave in the symbol is not a static wave. It moves, the cycle is everyflowing, which actually creates chaos inside this harmonic symbol. Harmony cannot be achieved so simply and this is what I explained to buddha. It kind of blew his mind. He's actually hiding in a corner somewhere right now. Oh well, the truth is a hard pill to swallow.

I'd expound more right now, but I got work to do, it's friday and lot is going on.

Lot's of craziness

So much is going on in the world it's hard for me to keep track of the time. Time being a relative term. Since time doesn't really exist. Anyways I will try and give a full update or maybe some nuggets of philosophical truth in a couple days. It's hard running hell and writing a blog. I heard today that bill gates might start writing one. You should see the inside of that guy's head. It's crazy. I'll be seeing him soon, hahahahahahahahahhahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You still are...

...silly monkeys. Yeah you guys make me laugh more than anything in the world. Your always questioning your origins. You think that by figuring out your past you can somehow come to grips that your just an anomaly that happened. Your a probability that happened in the chaos. Your just a fluke, a glitch in the system. A billion years is a blink of the eye in reality to the age of this system. It has happened over and over and over. Yet you still haven't learned, not that any clues have been left for you. Oooooh, you saw the rings of saturn, how fucking impressive. You've spent your precious money to send a hunk of metal into space to look at a planet you'll never visit, never see up close, the pictures rock, but really come on. You can't even comprehend the basic values of physics and how they apply on a subatomic level how would you ever expect to understand what's beyond your own planet. You still don't understand a basic concept like gravity, yet you think that you can explain evolution.

Things don't come in neat little packages. It's bundled random clusters of things that happen. Sometimes you show hope of understanding but then you seem to play it off as a fantasy. It seems like a fantasy or a nightmare. Stop looking to the past to explain the future, that's not how it works. You must look to the future and realize that the past has happened. Why do you think you can go back and change it? You can't. That's the fantasy. You decisions have been made. You have to make a choice and not regret the choice you've made. Stop thinking you can change the past. Time travel is impossible. There are no plains of existence in which an alternate earth is on an alternate path in the future. The ego on a human being makes me crazy, always humanizing everything. Only humans are human. Nothing else, nothing more. God didn't make you in his image you created god in your image. I was created by the very fact of your own guilty conscience trying to humanize the bad thoughts you were having. Get over it. You have the thoughts not because your evil, but because your brain can't cope with your instinct. Your will to survive and your will to become better than yourself (better than your animal beginnings) rip and tear at your very conscience. It creates the multiplicity that is a defining characteristic of humanity.

silly monkeys, your a mutation not some grand evolution from ape to man, but a genetic mistake over a generation or two. Accept life for what it is. Your here make the best of it.